Sunday 28 November 2010

Antidote

You have poisoned me, irrecoverably, irreconcilably, irredeemably. I will never be the same, not now, not ever. How could I be? What is it about you that could be so cruel? How could you? I am glad you have gone. I really am. I am better off without you. You don’t believe me, do you? You don’t believe me because you thought that you had a hold on me that could keep me snared for ever. Isn’t that the case?
Well you are wrong. And I will tell your why. It’s because I have an antidote to your poison. What a blessing it was that you gave me the flick. You opened my eyes. You washed out my ears. You straightened me out. You did all that without realising that you did me a favour. I am amazed how quickly I got you out of my system. You were purged. You were expunged. You were obliterated. It is you that went down the drain. It is you that has gone. Goodbye!
And what about me, you ask? Well I feel clean, refreshed, born again, renewed, better, brighter, and most important looking at the future. No, no, not looking to the future, but looking at the future. There she is. She is looking at me now. She is smiling. No, not smiling, she is laughing because she is so pleased to see me. I can see it in her eyes. I can see it the way she is walking toward me. I can feel it the way she is reaching out for me, touching my hands, hugging me tight. I am so glad you have got you out of my life as I have some real living to do.

15 comments:

  1. Hi OldEgg - this had such a different tone to your previous pieces..direct, raw, angry..the clipped sentences and carefully chosen words really conveyed some powerful feelings..I love that it's also slightly open to interpreation..very satisfying read..thanks as ever for your kind comments..Jae

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  2. Tough and honest. I love the last line "I am so glad you have got you out of my life as I have some real living to do". There is also no better antidote than to replace the purely negative with the most positive, bright and caring soul.

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  3. I agree with Jae - your story left me wondering whether the antidote was more of a placebo. Some very honest and poignant writing.

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  4. The antidote of moving on to better things... well done.

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  5. only a woman can reach down your throat and grab your loins pulling them back through your heart ripping it apart and rendering your manhood screaming for revenge.

    I enjoy the way you write. Nice work.

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  6. There seems to be some deep emotions hiding beneath the words here... I like the power expressed. I think it's always the first step toward healing. Nice.

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  7. OldEgg,
    This is just wonderful and so well described. It is best when we get rid of the poison in our lives.
    Pamela

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  8. I think they call it 'on the rebound'!

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  9. ouch. a real portrayal if such things i thought!

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  10. Angry and rightfully so. I am guessing you don't write this unless you have felt it.

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  11. hey there... wow! what an intense write up! im tempted to think this one comes from reality because its so vividly written.

    thanks for dropping by my place. hope to keep in touch!

    happy blogging! :)

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  12. You are such a versatile writer!

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  13. Often, this is the right attitude to have towards life.
    Some great, thought provoking writing here.
    Nicely done

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  14. such a powerful, angsty piece. sometimes these poisons make you stronger after all

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